I struggled with starting this particular blog. My mind ran with different thought, out-of-order; til I told myself just start typing, let you flow through. And that, I also realized, is the beginning of knowing yourself; finding your purpose. For one you have to know what your soul needs and craves. you have to be ready to be able to handle the unknown, which for me can be terrifying, and anxiety filled. But I have personally trained myself to configure myself to get through tough times. Preceding times prepare me for future times. Whatever they may be. I’ve, as I like to put it, become somewhat of a professional poor person lol The title doesn’t bother me. It is what it is. I’ve dealt with homelessness, abusinve relationships, stupid mistakes I’ve had money; in my eyes. Ive changed and grown tremendously.
This time around, the biggest thing for me has been to learn to love being alone. I am not on the quest to find love and a husband.. BUT, shall the right man come along and I know in my soul that he is the right one, then alrighty, let it flow. But for now I am content. I am focused on being a Black Business Owner. I still have to start from the bottom, but I want to have my hands filled with money coming from places I don’t even have to touch! But i want all my ventures to be relevant, powerful, helpful, are a reflection of what I stand for.
I encourage others to tap into themselves, and find inside what it is that they enjoy, what makes them tick, what would be their joy; and use that! But the problem is that people find it painful to face truth, no matter how much they ask for it. And trust I know its painful. But the more honest you are with yourself about your flaws and strengths, the easier it is to grow and mature, I promise you.
I’m not all the way there, but I KNOW I have made strives, and when you know, nobody can take that from you. You learn to heal internally. I don’t mean your organs, I mean your mind, your anxiety, your heart… Now granted you could still feel some things. We’re human that’s what happens. Situations, circumstances, moments, they happen.. BUT you will be able to better handle them when they do come along. You’ll think better on your toes to take control of a situation. But this isn’t something that comes easy. You have to be aware of your triggers, your anger, your fears, your strengths, use logic and common sense, everything to operate yourself properly. This is character building as well. Continue to grow, no matter how old you are. Build til you know you’re solid. Embrace and enjoy the process! It can only get better, it’s up to you! It’s about enjoying the rain while you’re in it. Get a dang umbrella, and put on some boots, and buck up! Peace and love!